Philtered Soul

It's a coffee at
The neighborhood shop —
Philtered Soul

I've never had it.
What would it do to me?
Bad or good I

Think I want to keep it
It is a part of me

I Kind of Like

I kind of like the drifting
Dreaming sort of drunk
I don't know what I think
Free to stumble into some
Sort of truth.

Don't judge me
I know that drunk isn't de rigueur
I know that I should think amazed confused
But still. Still
Somehow I think myself as mused

Time

I pass time
Practicing my piano or
Working on a necklace or
Reading about singing or/and
Drinking beer and
I wonder why and
I wonder if and how and
What is meant and about
Loneliness and love and
Self harm and whether I'm
Winding things up or
Off on an adventure and
I curl up in loneliness
And unshed tears
Ache hard hard hard
And despair lives in my pocket
I pass time

Need

I need? Want? You are what
I need? Want? You just what
I need? And. Here. Now. Need
Give yourself.
Give yourself.
Need.
I.
Need.
Just Now.
Need.
I need.
Give yourself to me.